jus woke up...
work start at 5pm..
its OT double pay cause 2day is suppose to be my off day..
i am jus too bored to stay at home so mite as well spend my days in borders and memorise the whole store..


ohhohh my achilles tendon is getting better after gg to doc..
and due to the muscle relaxant and painkiller pills..
can walk better..
hope my leg gets better..


jus a random post..
my bk of the week is deathly hallows..
going to finish the book within this week..
then i am going to start with kite runner then either love in time of cholera or atonoment or time traveller's wife..


minimally spiteful+hopeful.
did it come true?

1:05 PM;
I made my mark

woke up at 4+pm.
slept at 3+am.
so nice to sleep long hours after 3 consecutive days of sleeping for less den 5hrs!!!!
3 consecutive days of opening to closing shift!!
am i crazy or what??
with a fucked up painful heel...
why isnt my heel healing??!!!!
walked like some crazy shit limping like i am disabled...


feels like a zombie and stoned...


i am goin to have an interesting saturday this coming week.
dunno how it will turn out..
jus so weird and awkward..
lets see how it goes........


unrequited..
still spiteful...

4:38 PM;
I made my mark

i feel so stoned and spiteful now.
work opening to closing.
fun with recovery almost 80% of my time.
just got use to it till i dont feel feel anything and feel just obliged to do it.
so yea i jus did recovery most of the time walking arnd the store in my own freaking dreamland.


hate to see lazy specimens who do not know how to put their stuff back.
n make their own floorstacks n encaps.
totally zen today.


2day in the pantry for break was damn funny!!!
couldnt stop laughing.
anu is the best!!!
i love anu!!!!
(she will get so estatic if she reads this)


i wan more OT.
i dont mind doing recovery all day.
as long i get to walk arnd the store n be in my own world.
picking watever loose bks anywhere.
thus i can have more $$$$$.
so i can go travel in europe!!!!
thats one of my dream.haha


another of my dream is to spread a deadly virus to the world.
killing ALL the humans and living things in the world except for a certain few specimens.
thereafter i destroy 99% of the world and left 1% of land for me.
after satisfying myself with the peace of only me in the world and being happy alone
in the world then i will euthanised myself.hahahahah.evils!!
i know i am sadistic.
well this is one of my fantasy.
and the other is to die at the age of 28 on my birthday itself.
wouldnt that be cool??!!!
i dont know why at 28 but it seem like a nice number.
its no point living life so long.
so less sins made.haha.
and its tiresome living life of routine.
work or study or sleep and such.


jus a note that i am not a depressed or troubled person.
hah.jus spiteful n tired n fucked up.

1:38 AM;
I made my mark

for the first time in my life of doin kids rec,
the freaking kids section looked clean with the kids rec finished!!!
what an achievement!!!!
and 'some people' does not believe it....
haha..
jus too happy...
so yea nothing is impossible if u set yourself to accomplish something..
so happy..
too overjoyed..


and another thing that made me happy is that i got my pay!!!!
damn shocked when i see how much i got!!!
so rich so rich!!!!
so many things i wana get....
the first thing will be an asics running shoes!!!
yesyes 2day i am off so i going to go shopping for the shoes!!
and see what other things i wana get.
hurhur so happy.

12:38 AM;
I made my mark

i am back?
jus too bored so am gonna blog some shit stuff.
As ended lyk 2mths ago.
n i been workin in borders for 1+mth.
thats wat currently happening in my life.


had a dream abt my As result last nite.
damn freaked out tho.
i got B for maths C for chem n D for phy.
thats not how i plan my result to be.
thats a no-where-to-go kinda result.
i will totally commit suicide with that kinda result la.
after all the trouble i took jus to get to the final stages of taking the As exam.
so yea i hope and hafta get better result than that.
esp my phy i want to get at least C.
dun want my fucking effort to go to waste.


working in borders sometimes ruins my fucking days with customers being so fucked up.
to the extent that i really want to smack or slap or last out at them.
totally cannot make it some of the customers who wants to buy books n read n yet do not know how to read terms n conditions.
did u see the contradiction in the sentence?
errrr irrtating specimens these stupid customers.
i got called an idoit before by a customer.
i got scolded by a customer for saying sorry that she cldnt find her bk.
i got scolded by a customer that i am ridiculous that i cldnt find the bk for them.
so clever go find the bk for themselves la.dumb fucks!


i think this blog can be like my complaining n bitching session or somthing.
cause i really need a source to vent my undying anger somewhere before i go crazy.


yst work was rather ok n enjoyable.
no customers incur my wrath since i was in my own recovery world.
recovery can be fun if there are not many people.
cause lazy specimens jus leave abandoned bks anywhere they want.
since IT know where to get the book but do not know where to put it back eventually.
thats why they are called specimens.


zen-a new practice of mine(trying hard to practise it)


2day is OFF day.
goin gym den slack somewhere wif psp n go home to sleep to repeat the work routine.


getting my pay soon!! yay!! i am gg to be rich soon.


cheers

1:51 AM;
I made my mark

i feel so screwed with ALOT of assignments piling up..
this is the consequences when i am jus too lazy to do anythg abt it..
esp for maths..
i hvnt touch my JJC prelim05 yet..
and hvnt fnsh RJ05 P2 for maths also..
all i visualise is me dead!!!..


at least abit inprovement with organic chem that i am starting to familiarise with the damn equations!!..
gerrrrrrr..got P2 and 3 mock chem test la 2mr..
damn irritating eh got mock test every week for chem..
maths is just dumping prelim papers at our face every week..
the most useless subj is physics and GP..
but my phy tutor still got gv us paper every week ah..
at this rate i will never be able to sit down and revise well..
GP is uncommentable....
so lost in GP..
buy the prelim paper06 booklet also dunno for what..
jus gg to be dead and prelims in less den 5weeks!!!!!
god bless me!!!


and the ironic thg is that i can still go out and hang arnd wif hayl, vitz, shah n faris on sat..
haha..anw hayl's place is quite near mine so yea jus go alng wif their chilling out..
me n shah jus sit down n BITCH while the rest play soccer or basketball..
and more chilling out wif pizza hut chesse pizza..
got the cheese sauce or something..
oh ya go see the pics of the hangout@hayl..
there are some very nice 'falling' pose of vitz..
god knows what the hell she is up to..


a brief entry abt nat day now..
went wif khad to watch the fireworks..
initially our plan was to go fullerton..
but due to my indiscipline, i was nearly 1 hour late..
and by the time we get to fullerton starbucks the place is full..
so we looked arnd and saw marina blvd which is jus opp the esplanade..
made way there..
damn hot la at that time..reach there arnd 4+..
quite fun to look arnd n laugh at 'funny' pple..
as the nat day show start, more pple came..
some got the cheek to freaking squezze and want to take our VIP seat..
damn making me angry la..
esp at these grp of indian kids who jus stand in frnt of us..blardy hell..
and this china guy who is so shameless to follow the kids and jus stand beside me when there was NO space at all..
total btich!!!..
i so cursed him in malay n english and the best thg is that he doesnt understand..
dumb fucks!!!!..
the water element show is quite entertaining tho..
but the best are the fireworks..
dunno why but fireworks just amaze me..haha..
after that me n khad went to beach rd to eat..
nice food..
sambal stingray, mee goreng and mutton chop!!!
i will upload the nat day pics soon..


hafta rush my chem n maths homeworkS now..
i need miracles..


Happy Birthday to my Mum n Lil Bro..
their birthday is on 12Aug same day..haha..




i miss floorball..and my yours truly(haha)..

12:57 AM;
I made my mark

ok now i totally got nothing to do thus blogging.
altho got tons n tons of assignments i have not done.
due to adiv,that i abandon my work.haha
and now i am feelin the burden all over me.
its lyk i am swimming among the papers n books.
hafta get my motivation or inspiration asap.
being ambitious to aim to get at least Cs for prelims.
thus hafta put thoughts of floorball away for awhile..
esp the thoughts of adiv..


because its been hauting me since its closure..
altho MI gals got 2nd.
well they trained quite hard for it and sure deserve it.
all the holiday and normal trainings plus SOME physical training..
with physical training incoparated in our stick training.
the traffic light,the shuttle run..i so hate them..
jus love the ball control, shooting and playup drills..
those which does not require much running..
cause i damnly hate to run..
irony kicks in..
but all this will not be acheived if not for our dearest coach-sonia..
a very patient yet firm n strict coach..
wo her god knows how we will be..


need to give credits to rury-san.the capt.my forward line..
for all the support she gave me and motivation and encouragement..
love her lots..altho i scream n shout at her on court..haha..
and also to my line-jabs n suha..
and the rest of the team..lemme see if i can recall all their names..
amanda,ama,priya,huian,guanting,shahidah,eunice,zai,wani,fad,julie..
and all the cheers to keepers-dee,riah n last but not least suhaila(sorry abt the last njc goal-my bad pass-it still haunts me)


and thanks to the yj team for cheering for me..
haha u guys are great..


refecting abt the adiv..
abt the playup..
the importance of playup..
not getting distracted..
jus focusing on YOUR game..
the aim of the game..
scoring is not everything..
to not doubt urself..
thus achieving success..
need to change my mindset to improve..
dun think that i improve much..
due to the sucky play for yj,ij and vj game..
alot of mistakes made..trying too hard to get it right..
dissappointing wif the way i played..
will jus start to hone my basics 1st..
esp the looking up passing or shooting..
very bad..the millions starjumps i did prove it all..


oh wells..now those times wo floorball will be spent either studying@starbucks
or in the gym..
at last got time to spend time in the gym to make my knee strong..haha..
cheers..

6:22 PM;
I made my mark